Finally found the time n energy to update. Been unusually tired... bz with work n what-not. I'm a workaholic =) and I'm proud to be one. A Levels results are out... did ok. so-so la but I'm alright with it. Though some stuff were unexpected. Bah. Now it's time to move on to a place I've been looking forward to since the day I entered pri sch... lol. BUT I haven really decided, confirmed, chop chop on wat I really wanna do/study leh. btw, congrats to those who've done well. If not, it's ok... life still goes on. Life will be MUCH MUCH better. Come to think about it, A Levels is OFFICIALLY over. OFFICIALLY!!! WOOHOO! Ok, nothing much is up with me except I've finished watching all TEN seasons of Friends. Remember the wonderful show they used to show on Channel 5? Yup, I've completed the whole series. Super nice!! I love it! I would have bought the whole series if I have the money but u know, I don't print cash. Moving on to watching Monk now! Not bad, pretty funny!! but I like Friends better =) My contract's coming to an end, so gonna be jobless soon. If anyone has any good recommendation, tell me!! I need a high-paying job!! cause I'm going Japan n HK n maybe china! Cool right? At the age of 19, I am FINALLY going to Japan!!! Disneyland, here I come~okok... crapping now cause nothing much to say. Just tt I don't mind working, my colleagues are nice, I like them except for that one or two but wat to do? I'm a fussy girl, not everyone pleases me. wahahha!I'm going back for lunch, haven eat. This update is just to keep this blog alive n to let some ppl know I'm still up n kicking! Btw, birthday's coming soon! I'm going to be 19... OH SO OLD!P.S: I miss sch though... just the part where I sit in the canteen/chatroom/library/classroom/amphi crapping n playing with my friends NOT the mugging part. I'm looking forward to uni life but I cannot imagine myself listening to lectures n doing tutorials again. I'm soooo NOT suitable to be a student. P.P.S: I miss my ny/rj friends!! call me!
-xin-
12:43 pm
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GCE A Levels Cambridge Examination has FINALLY ended on 15 Nov 2006. Will remember this day till my last breath.
Ok... so basically I had a rather short examination period as compared to many others esp the Econs S and Lit S peeps. Think abt it, I can take a 10 years Europe tour and by the time I've returned to Sg, they would still be having exams... Sigh.
Anyway, I'm not having as much fun as it's supposed to be because YES. I'm having post-exam blues. I'm sick I know. I dun really know wat's there to do except mope around the house, read, watch vcd, surf the net and get gastric flu -.- I haven even exactly pack my stuff yet because I need boxes and I can't bear to clear my econs stuff because they're so precious but for physics? I've dumped them all at some corner of the room... LOL
Haiya, damn sian la. ppl still having exam so nothing much to do. Oh, btw... I bought something from USA through sgspree.
Threadless is having a USD$10 holiday sale for most of their tees. Quite nice, unique I would say so go check it out. Basically almost everyone's organising a spree from threadless due to their sale.
Back to As... It was u noe... shit? The standard's super different from O Levels. All I can say is whoever said A Levels would be easier than school's prelim is bullsh*tting. Seriously. And nope, NJ n AJ aren't trying too hard by setting their papers to sky-high standards because A Levels CAN BE tt difficult. Like maths paper 1 and Physics. Econs essay was bombed too. MCQ was damn confusing. I heard fm paper 1 was rather easy though but who can trust those fm weirdos... haha. To think I though gp was terrible. Nah, that was just the start. The rest were equally disgusting.
In conclusion, I shall continue to mope around the house in order to try to get over the effect of post As and get a job. Basically no one has replied my mails. Sad. I wanna go out!!!!!!!!!
-xin-
11:43 am
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I'm having A Levels Maths Paper 1 tmr. Wish me luck. Bleah.
You know right, some wounds are so deep that they never seem to heal. Just a slight prick and it hurts like hell. Sigh...
-xin-
5:19 pm
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(My hiatus is NOT working) I'm so sick of Maths, so sick of stats. I've been doing non-stop stats to the extent that when I was stuck at one pathetic tys qn, I grabbed my stuff, stomped out of the school library and went home after being there for erm... only 2+ hrs. And that is so not me cause when I do maths, I'll do until the sky drops down. BUT I'm SO SICK of studying!!! Can't wait for As to be over. (Btw, I still have not touched my maths tys since this morning.) As usual, here's a list of stuff I wanna do after As. It's going to be LONG.
1) Sleep. I need sleep. I wanna sleep. Just LET ME SLEEP!
2) Finish my application for that 2 pathetic US uni that I've been putting off. Anyone knows how did I make use of opportunities available in JC to prepare me for uni life? Or can anyone see any hidden talent of mine that I've missed out in my 18 yrs on Earth?
3) Apply for debit card/ beg parents for credit card (tough luck but it nv hurts to try)
4) Go shopping @ VivoCity! That's so many stuff I wanna buy! Shoes esp.
5) Shopping @ Orchard. It's a ritual remember? Btw, Far East has got really gd jeans. Not too ex too =)
6) How can I miss out Marina Square?
7) Apply for driving lessons!! Anyone wanna wants a ride? I promise minimum scratches!
8) Attempt to finish my music theory or else my mom will nag.
9) Cycling! I plan to make it a everyday activity. At least it's something to keep my heartbeat going at a healthy rate. I should go learn yoga, so tt I'll be less grumpy, more calm. (Liyi n Cathy!!!! East coast yar?!)
10) Make a purchase through sgspree. I don't care what. I just wanna try online shopping! I'm so loser -.-
11) Guitar lessons!! Anyone willing to provide for free?
12) Find a job. Get tuition kids. Maybe piano kids... though they're equivalent of terrorists. I can't decide if I want internship (i.e letting them exploit me because it'll look gd on resume n they can't afford permanent photocopy-er) OR go apply Video EZY. I mean, u get to watch free shows everyday, how much better can life gets?
Maybe Esplanade too! I miss that place.
13) Finish reading the stuff on my bookshelves. They're collecting dust! Poor babies...
14) Sats II? Damn PHYSICS!
15) Go Japan/HK/Taiwan! I luv Asia, yes I do. Dunno if friend n friend still wanna go Taiwan or not leh.
16) Read up on Uni majors so that I can finally decide wat I want for my future. (Life's still boring after As)
17) Meet up with friends! Gd ones! Severe contacts with bad ones! Hahaha, just kidding la.
18) Eh, Mandy C----, if u seeing this ah, maybe we should make that cruise thing come true. We've been talking abt it for YEARS/AGES/CENTURIES/EONS~
19) Go Shao's house to stayover so tt I can finally have VCD/DVD marathon! Goong!!! (oops, Full House still with me)
20) Watch all the movies/shows that I've been missing because of g-ddamn As. Devil Wears Prada! Death Note! Lake House! I have like tons of vcds at home tt I haven watch. Poof.
21) How can I miss this out. KBOX anyone?!
22) Go pick up a sport. Like a gd, cheap sport. No golf, no water skiing/wakeboarding, no tennis ( Tennis lessons are BLOODY expensive), no sailing. TMD. Maybe I'll stick to jogging, cycling, badminton, soccer with small neighbourhood boys cause they not so fierce... hahaha. Ultimate frisbee! I think I'll try wakeboarding once I'm rich.
23) Be a good girl n learn to cook so tt my dad will stop harping on the fact that wo2 jin4 bu4 liao3 chu2 fang2, chu1 bu4 liao3 ting1 tang2 (something along the line tt I can't present myself well and I can't be hid in the kitchen because I can't cook. Watever la). I will cook delicious stuff for my future prince charming so tt I'll gain the upper hand over him and then poison him to death... wahahah!! Ok, I'm crapping.
24) Be a even better girl n learn to use the sewing machine in my house. I have a sewing machine, might as well use it.
25) DIY DIY DIY something. I can't decide wat but just something k.
26) Clean the room. It's a mess! Better yet, reconstruct my room. I shall build my own table. Carpentry!!
27) Reconstruct my wardrobe. I'm donating them to the salvation army. Clear the old, welcome the new =)
28) Go club. I should at least go once just to see how it's like. I gotta do something BAD once in a while right?
29) Continue those CIP tt I've stopped due to As and maybe sign up to be a volunteer @ children's home/SPCA.
30) My personal fav. Make big money just by selling my notes/tys/guidebooks/papers/ compiled notes to the karang guni man or any desperados. Look @ GP n Econs man... I think the karang guni man will have to make 10 ten trips up n down just to bring them down to his truck. I hope I earn @ least 20 dollars to make up for the few hundreds that I've paid. I'm making a loss but only in monetary terms =) Either that right or I'll hold a bonfire and invite people over and we can all burn our stuff together! Ran2 shao1 ba~~~ I hope those go to hell, esp the tys-es.
Ok, enough dreaming, back to mugging =( Only stupid charles can still game at a time like this. @#*&$#@&!$
P.S: I think the term "stupid charles" is stuck in some of our classmates' vocabulary.
-xin-
9:54 pm
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Well... really supposed to be doing econs now but I can't help it but wanna put this down. Eunice has kept me updated with the latest news in town about my fellow rafflesian this morning. Yup, that girl. The gepper, humans scholar, PM bk prize winner, daughter of XXX, etc. Ya lar, HER la. First of all, wanna know something? I'm not an elite (so says the girl who went to tons of premier schs, WOW). Not because I'm the pathetic less than 5% of the cohort in RJ who's taking 3 subs but because I don't see myself as one. I'm ur average heartlander who can't really speak gd english (OMG!), or at least most of the time I'm either rolling my tongue too much or slurring my words as often pointed out by my oh-so-angmoh brother. Limited vocab too. Btw, my mommy n daddy aren't some big shot either. Like I read in one of the many blog entries tt responded to the saga, my dad's probably part of the "most educated taxi drivers" group. Yup, he used to be a taxi driver after being retrenched during the 1997 AFC n he holds a degree mind u. Is he too old to rejoin the rat race? I don't think so but many do. Please leh, my dad leh! The man who can do a maths qn in less than 10 steps when the given solution is like a page. BUT! the point is, so what? He's nearing retiring age. That kicks him out of our endless, mindless, pointless game. So obviously tt means ur elitist era is erm... maybe a span of 30 yrs? From the time u sit for tt stupid GEP exam to the time when u get sick of ur job and moving into early forties when people despise u of ur balding head and upcoming menopause. At the end of the day, as we luv to put it in econs: In the very long run, we're all DEAD.For my darling schmate, u can't blame her for tt elitist mind of hers. Look at that environment that she has grown up in, I bet many of my friends agree with her that it's the elites that's ruling the country and if you can't live with that, get out. We are moving into age of globalisation, when money IS making the world go round. U can't blame others for loathing people from premier schools either. I hate them too. Alright, I was like that too when I was in ny. I nv really like neighbourhood sch kids. Thought they were too rowdy... u noe the lians n bengs stereotypes. However, I've turned the table around n look down on people with tt elitist mindset instead. Who said people who are not academically inclined will not be able to succeed? Maybe it's difficult in Singapore, considering the fact that we lived on meritocracy... haiya, it's all in the blood/surname la. If ur dad/mom's gd, u have ur unlimited resources to make u into a genius. I do believe talents are inheritary though but then again, there's always Yamaha to turn to. There's alot of discussions abt this elite thingy going on like how scholarships are only based on grades n teachers' recommendations. What abt character, virtues, morals? That's right. What about those? When I look at some of the people I know, I can tell they're definitely scholar materials, know why? Perfect grades, good records, wonderful achievements, it all boils down to how you plan ur path. You want scholarship? Choose good CCAs la, aim for leadership positions lor. Do alot of CIP la, get the hours, super impt. On the other hand, here's some other adjectives to describe a few of them, arrogant, self-centred, selfish, grades-oriented, no friend, only acquaintances. Everytime I talk to them, I only wanna ask "Who do you think you are? Snap out of tt disgusting mindset of yours." Also, how well do the teachers know them? Of course all teachers luv straight As students la, who doesn't? But personally, I think my physics teacher know me better than some of my classmates. Why? Cause I failed physics n I'm stuck with him until A Levels. The time I spent with my teachers, definitely more than the rest. As we all know, some people are only at their best in front of their teachers n I'm definitely guilty of that. So... as we can all infer, we are branded by our results.Does that mean meritocracy is bad? It all depends I guess. I'm not exactly sure. I of course cannot deny that I've benefitted from this whole system. If I didn't go RJ, u think I can go US for econs trip? Nope. If I didn't go nygh, think I'll be so motivated to do well during Os? Maybe not. On the other hand, this meritocracy thingy makes my life boring. Wanna know why? My friends never change. My social group always consist of the same people. So many nyps ppl at nygh. So many nyps cum nygh ppl at RJ. So many nyps cum rgs/ri at RJ. Bet if I went HC, sama sama la. Everywhere on campus, there's someone I find familiar. Damn sian leh. Of course I wanna keep a certain group of friends but I wanna meet NEW people. New, different! Which is why as I've often said, we are very much grouped into our very own class by the time we reach puberty. Worse ah, u get scholarship, work for gvt, u're back in the same crowd. Ok, not worse, but see how u like it la.I can't really speak for people past my age but for a mere lowly teenager like myself, this rat race has gotta change its path some time in the near future. We've already surpassed that "dun need nobel laureates, we want productivity!" age. Many of us think the States is the dreamland or utopia. Why? Cause they have freedom which is erm... very much not tt true. They have very strict laws regarding adolescents and they do have tt tyranny of minority like how we succumb to tyranny of PSC scholars. Freedom of speech, yar. Strong cultivation of individuality, yar but I prefer love n peace =) US is everything we're not n yearn for but the truth is (for most of us), we will never be able to uproot that hierachy mindset from our puny brains. We will always classify ourselves as the lowly heartlander, the big shot; the foreign worker, the expatriate; the COE, the cleaner; the neighbourhood sch kid; the top sch kids; the 4 subbers, the 3 subbers; the artsy-fartsy, the science geeks; the JC (watever -sian u call urself), the poly kiddos; the honours degree holder, the diploma holder; the fresh grad, the retirees; the taxpayer, the tax burden. We have very much lived with racial harmony in our secular state for the past 41 yrs, it's time to move on to exterminate this new game of class discrimination.I realised I really should stand up for many of us. We are NICE people!! Cannot discriminate us just cause we RJ one! Wah lau... ok. Got some very irritating, insensitive, mindless people but I can tell u in a very li3 zhi2 qi4 zhuang4 manner that I'm nice. I don't really have alot to be proud of but I'm proud of the fact that I'm a good person. Ok, here's my 2 cents worth of thoughts. Still got some la but gotta be censored, I still wanna keep my blog one. Can come find me to discuss though. We can complain n bitch from day till night =) Gotta go back to Econs -.-P.S: Reminder, I was the Pres of my CCA in sec sch u noe. HoHoHo! But so what? Yar, SO WHAT?P.P.S: Actually what's the moral of this story, as I've learnt frm Ger, let's just all shut up n keep our beloved thots within our own community
-xin-
9:08 pm
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