Been thinking alot lately. Realised dun really have much friends... wondering does that matter? Maybe it doesn't. I may be left with only one friend but as long as she's one whom I can trust completely, then I guess I'll be contented. Was surfing blogs just now... everyone's talking about promos n results. Well, I wouldn't say my papers were screwed because I was already prepared to fail. Everything just turned out to be what I expected. I am upset but I can't cry because people don't expect me to. Then again, I'm not THAT upset neither.
I think I should treat myself better. Study harder, work harder towards my goals. Deep down I know what I want but reality keeps pushing me away from it. So I've decided that maybe I should stop letting myself down like how I always do for the past 17+ years and just work towards what I want regardless of what other people think so that I'll not feel upset like ALL THE TIME or maybe most of the time. I should just stop asking people what they want and start creating that path that I want. I shouldn't think about other people's opinions, I shouldn't always think I'm right and expecting people to behave the way I think they should. Maybe I should be more flexible in judging others. Or maybe I shouldn't even be judging others but rather be more critical of myself instead. Slacking is definitely a no-no from this very second, keep moving cause time never stop for you. I take back all my words regarding taking a break whenever I feel like breaking down. I shall constantly remind myself of what I should be doing and what I'm working towards, making use of every single opportunity that I have and every advantage that I'm given. I mean why am I sitting here complaining about the goddamn education here? I'm just wasting time away. I'm already fated to be born in here so might as make use of it to create my destiny. It's kind of weird how sitting on the toilet bowl can inspire you so much.
I have no idea how long can I sustain this "ultra-diligent" attitude but I will try. I shan't look down on muggers anymore. They are the people whom I look up to. I don't care about people with high IQ cause I know I'll never be like them. I think I've grown up... to become one of them.
-xin-
9:38 pm
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"Announcing the
reopening of Yu Xin's Blog"
Huan Ying Guang Ling (It sounds nicer than "welcome")
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FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY went K Box on Mon. Anyway, I have lotsa things to complain about regarding K Box. Not the session but the damn company itself. But will keep that till next entry.
Went with S02B. Well... it has gotta be the most interesting experience ever. And I'm still suffering from the aftermath of it. All the Westlife n A1. Thanks alot zh n wl. It's quite nice to see everyone letting their hair down and I definitely saw a different side of everyone. Regarding the singing standards marh... Mh ROCKS la. His SHIN! Gosh~~ superstar~~~ But hope he can still talk after all those "screaming" Apparently, the guy in me appeared again cause I sang Jay Chou n some others guyey song. Oh watever... I'm still a girl. And I didn't get to sing my chuang wai!!!!! cause ppl dunno how to sing =( so I become a bit siao siao and sang both the male and female parts -.- We stayed @ Kbox from 2 to 8. supposed to end at 7 but nobody come chase us out so hehehhe. And someone REFUSED TO LEAVE LA!!! haiyo... tired already can....
And I realised my classmates are GAY la. Then again, I suspected it long ago... LOL. Not all la, just some. (Maybe just 2) Nice bonding session... But I wanna go again!! not with the class la... too many people, cannot sing until shuang. So *hint hint* mandy, xx and shao... xinyu & chinyee too... and some others whom I shan't name.
Been watching VCDs like mad these days. Keep buying... I think I spent 3/4 of this month's allowance on VCDs. so again... I'm broke. But happily broke =) I luv vcds. Been watching Pride... so nice~! And I just bought war & beauty yesterday. Thanks mom! So nice!
Exams was horrible. Gonna get retain... watever. Will try to apply to go Poly then... Haiz. I hate F MATHS!!!!! F***ing maths la.
Anyway... things to do:
1) Finish up ALL undone tutorials (esp physics) [Yes, I'm still mugging]
2) Stayover @ sz's house. (That rich kid has an IPOD NANO la...............)
3) Make them come stayover at mine
4) Watch at least one vcd a day.
5) Go shopping. I need a pencil case!
6) Practise my piano and do the damn theory
7) Pack the room
8) PW oral presentation. (Damn that guy, dun screw up for us)
9) Save money (I just contradict myself -.-)
10) Wait for S.H.E's Zhen Ming Tian Nu! (WoosH!)
11) Contact old friends (preferably go KBox!!)
12) Do something about my messy hair.
Ok... so I finally updated.
-xin-
11:41 am
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