Though I'm in e blogging mood, I forgot wat I wanna blog about. I think it was supposed to be something along the lines of complicated people or rather people being complicated. Or was it finding out more about myself? I'm having short term memory these days. It's like I'm not putting in effort to go remember stuff. OMG OMG OMG. I'm getting senile!!!!! Anyway, back to serious business.
We are all complicated people. I'm rather sick of guessing what others are thinking. We are so fickle! One second this, one second that. Then again, I enjoy observing people and listening out to wat others are say (eavesdropping ^^). Sometimes when we break things down, everything looks easy. However, when we go beyond the surface, we're complicated once again. Feelings beyond happiness, sorrow, anger. Feelings that words cannot describe (maybe due to my poor language).
These days as I think back about how e class has progressed and how ppl have changed (including me, though I often deny it), I start to realise that everyone seems to have a different side in them. (To 2S02B, I'm WATCHING u guys) Better or worse, I wouldn't judge so soon but things have gone beyond my deduction. Shall continue to observe situations before making any conclusion. Some of them are just more than wat they appear to be. Things aren't tt simple anymore yar.
Take ME for example. I'll admit it.
There's evil Yu Xin in me. The one that thinks of all the mean, crazy stuff that I'll do to people whom I deem as evil/jian.
There's also the sarcastic Yu Xin who appears 95% of the time. I admire her the most. She makes my life most interesting (I sound weird. It's like sarcastic Yu Xin aren't me but she is. I'm not making sense) Without tt part in me, my life will be damn boring, it's something tt distinguishes me from my peers =) Though negatively but so far, it's bringing me somewhere. At least I'm sensitive enough to know my limits (most of e time)
Demure Yu Xin is, which I strongly believe, hidden somewhere in me, just tt it's in e centre of a damn complicated maze. I'm 100% sure (confirm, chop chop!) tt I'll find it one day though!
The one I love e most is the quiet side of me. Being able to sit down to read a good book, to think through stuff or even just to stone is considered a luxury to me. Sometimes I feel intelligent when I'm just sitting quietly by myself and think about everyday stuff (stop puking....) It's like I'm a philosophical, sophisticated n mature person. (Ok, puke if u want) I'm glad I'm not hyperactive. Yar, just wanna illustrate e fact that there's many sides to a person. Like a die (I'm learning stats now... can't help it if i'm using a die) 6 different faces, one object. That's human nature =) Forgot to say this, though I'm quiet at times, I can be LOUD too. Like VERY.
Too cheem already. Feel like slping.... continue another day.....
-xin-
10:41 pm
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