Went for dinner @ cafe cartel after gp common test (which sucks big time. I'm screwed AGAIN) Was talking about bitching. Like how bitching about other people is damn mean and how the person involved would feel.
I admit la. I bitch. Like all e time. I always thought that if I admit to my bitchiness, it's not much of a big deal. However, the more I thought of it, the more terrible it seems. It's like I'm actually proud of the fact that I bitch about people. How gross. I'm in this total state of dilemma of deciding whether to bitch or not. I'm not some saint that can accept people's flaw but I dun think I have e courage to say it straight into people's face what I'm unhappy about. I can't keep all those stuff within me but then again, it's WRONG to bitch about people. ArgH. I need to undergo radical change. Maybe I need to sort out my thinking first. Shall use the hol n common test period to sort stuff out. Needa avoid people. Oh. This is so insane.
Happy stuff... I'm totally inspired to work harder for my gp =) cause he remembers my name. I'm over the clouds (did i use it correctly? I remember it's over something something tt's in e sky or is it over the moon? stars?) !! happy!!! I can't sleep tonight. I'm totally smitten...... lalalalala...
I just read the 4th bk of NANA. It's really good!! Those who can read manga, go grab it. (Gals esp) It's damn good. I'm addicted. Can't wait for the next book. Will catch the movie if it ever comes out on VCD/DVD. DEFINITELY.
P.S: I'm trying to make myself not so apathetic but at the same time, I'm having trouble coping with too much emotions. Insanity is setting in.
Random entry. Happy reading!
p.p.s: I don't not like J1s. I just can't bring myself to accept them. Heard even more terrible stuff about what they did during O2. geez
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10:47 pm
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