Never in my life has I been so angry with myself. I'm just not the same Yu Xin anymore. I dun lose my temper anymore, I just ren3 qi4 tun1 shen1 for everything now. When ppl irritate me, I just smile and pretends nothing happened. What is WRONG with me?! I everything also pretend it doesn't affect me. I still got dao face but it's just cause I'm sian. Everything is so stagnant. The pace of life is so fast, I feel as though I'm still standing at the same spot even though I've moved thousands of steps.
Can u guys (my franz ah... those who noe me well) imagine me not being sarcastic for one day? I've NOT been sarcastic for a very long. Only to those I'm close with or rather comfortable with. SAD LIFE. I'm just this very quiet, introvert gal... Ya. I can't even roll my eyes properly. Ya... I'm a well-mannered child. Thank u =X I miss being lame, high, crazy, slack. I can't even be slack!!!! KNS! Pple keep reminding me there's NOT MUCH time to promos. OKAY! FINE! I know I did badly for CTs and needa buck up but SHUT UP ALRIGHT! There's TEN MORE WEEKS. KNS. I wish I wish I could turn back time and rechoose the school I wanna go to or rather change my subject combination.
Went back to nyps today for some PW interviews. Saw couple of hc ppl. Wanted to cry. I could be there instead of where I am now. Then I thought of my pri sch class. As bad as those days were, I really miss 6I. I miss the guys, the gals, the weird, the fun, the good and the bad. I suddenly thot how nice it would be if the guys were in my class. But then again, they could have changed and I wouldn't know.
School life's boring these days. Don't even have shuai ge to look at. Nothing to look forward to in school. I need the motivation. I'm a normal girl, I still like guys as critical as I am. I enjoy the feeling of nervousness when I see a guy I like... but I have no feeling now. Lalalala... Whatever. Guess I'm going back to wallow in self-pity. Good bye. My heart feels so old.
-xin-
you sing!
10:32 pm
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::This is Me::++
I'm yx. Have suffered through education system in top premier "cheena", "bratty" schools and currently undergoing further intense suffering in rjc.
I'm 18 (finally)! I've frequent mood swings and I'm a dangerous girl.
My hobby is to plot against people =) Talent I've learnt some time in my life.
I'm a group person. Means I CANNOT survive alone.
Let me announce to the world that I'm in luv with movies, jap food, music, myself (duh!) and many many more.
BUT! I absolutely detest snobs. insensitivity. unhealthy competition. restrictions. lizards. YOU! (just kidding)
I realised... I need a wishlist! Anyway...
1. New hp
2. Bags
3. Life
4. that my depression will go away
5. Go Japan! go Japan!
6. NANA Illustrated book
7. BIG eyes
