::Wo hen guai!::

Screwed.

The very first sentence that came straight into my mind the moment I stepped out of school was "Today has gotta be the most screwed up day of my life" Then again, I often thought that every other day was most terrible, horrible, disgusting or the worst day of my life.

There's always a bad day for everyone but I realised almost every school day make my life miserable. Nothing with the school work. It's the people around me. They hate me... not literally hate but there's always this HUGE gap between me and the people. I mean it's weird. I didn't have this much difficulty mingling with people. I tried to have a decent conversation but apparently it always end up as a monologue. Or maybe I'm mumbling hence they can't hear me?

It's 3 months already... nothing's improving... I'm sad. I wouldn't say I dun mix well with the people there cause apparently I'm like thin air to them. No mixing... Just floating. I wouldn't wanna change to suit them but if I dun, I'll never fit in. I never thought my ren2 yuan2 was THIS bad... Sucks. How would you expect me to survive?!?!?! Gosh.

But since yesterday, I'm back to the world of reality where I see those hypocritical stuff... argh. Send me back where I belong, to the REAL people. (xx... I totally understand what you mean)

Btw, today physics paper is just another addition to "Worse things can still happen even though life's pretty bad now" I'm screwed. This is bad. Results sux + lack of social life = No life. The time has finally come when I failed as a person. I HATE CROWDS, it just make me feel more alone. yayaa... laugh at me... whatever

One word --> Pathetic
-xin-
you sing!

5:48 pm

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